If you take a breath of the stars in the night sky
Like silver snow drifting in the air
Swirling around like your breath on a freezing day
Your toes are cold in your old torn sneakers
You could go blind by looking at her all day long
Blind in your mind and blind in your soul
Looking at her with your eyes and with your soul
Running around in circles in your mind
The water drips slowly from the metal gutter
And still you're stuck there
Unmoving in the silence, looking at the place where there is no longer anyone
The water glistens on the peppermints
Like dewdrops form on the grass
And something in your heart has gone to the sea
Like the last ship of the eternal breeze
The last ship set sail from the Mediterranean harbor
And you weren't on it
Or were you?
Were you in the land of the jellyfish
The fireworks and sunshine and rocks and water
Or were you floating away on the wooden ship
Already homesick as you're going back home
Was the ship a metal ferry
Under the ancient dragons in the night sky
The moon cold white and beautiful
Glistening in the dark sea
Or was the ship a quiet night
When you're all alone
If my soul is full of blue light
Can the blue light show
Can it shine out and glow in the surrounding air
Can I keep running anywhere
When the world has stolen your breath
And you're stuck there shocked
Can you get your breath back
When the thousand years passed
And the time was up for the king to be the king
He didn't want to give up the crown
He wanted it to go on for just one more day
The hummingbird asked the summer
Can I have just one day
One more day
Before I have to make the trip for the winter
The trip all the way back to El Salvador
The flower fell from the tree
And drifted down slowly on the breeze
And landed on the quiet lake
Pink petals floating on clear water
If I travel a thousand miles in my mind
But I'm still in the same place
And only seven seconds have passed
Or only seven minutes have passed
Can I go to sleep
Can I lie onto the pillow and fall into it forever
Can I fall out of time forever
Where all of time is spent sleeping
Being inside of time
Only means running around in circles in my mind
A thousand miles in a minute, and still in the same place
Lately the sun has been falling into the sea
The golden sun sinking into the deep blue water
I want to go to the place outside of time
Where the water and wind sleep
Where the rain on the breeze falls against the window
And you can sleep forever
The strawberries sit in the bowl
All quiet and red
The raindrops keep falling on me
And I stand still
I love the rain
If you take a taste of an ice cube
Crystal snow melting in your mouth
Can you taste a thousand years
A thousand years of water
A million years of rain
If you take a taste of the stars
Can you go to sleep with starlight inside of you
The mist sprayed in from the street
The spray of the rain carrying in underneath the balcony
And still I stood there
My feet were getting cold
I didn't want to move
If you have flowers
For many months
What will happen to them
What will happen to our seas
When a million years have passed
What will happen to the forests
Can the forests come back
Can the trees come back
Can the air fall asleep for a million years
With the rain falling on its window forever
The silence drifted in the air
And it was more quiet than it was before

I have accepted that I failed. I'm just living out my days until I can leave this earth.

My consciousness slipped from green to gray
Across the dreams of wishes
Fading sunlight passed through the glass
The words on the page slept silently
My mind ran around in circles
Circles circles my mind ran around in circles
The silence seemed like a thousand years
Echoing in a giant church
Can I fade into you
Can I please just fade into you
Fade away
Fade away from this earth
I have never been this lonely
Hold my breath for seventeen years
Hold my breath for seventeen moons
The moon is still in the sea
And the sea is still in me
Quiet water filling up my soul
Salty depths a mystery in the light
Looking out the window
The tales of the sky come apart
And there are no more hopes
The castles have melted away
Like glass in the sun or sand in a fishbowl
The fish goes around and around in the water
And still the water is clear and cold
A thousand seas was the promise
The breath has left the seas
It is strange how the wind floats along
And there is no voice
I will never open myself up to anyone again
This is why I stick to myself
The ache of silver is like the breath of indigo
The water pools in little droplets
The dew forms on the sun like rain drips down the window
Your heart is like a million years
Some kind of starshine fell from the ceiling
And the drops of light landed on me
The stardust of a million years past
Like hopeless shining gleaming glass
The hands of time circled around
And the clock ticked and it was no different
Nothing was different nothing was different
Still there was silence and still there was nothing
The chin on the windowsill
Looking out the window
Became part of the windowsill
After so long
Dreams come apart and no one hears the sound
No one cares
A silent symphony ending in nothing
The beautiful music stopped playing and no one cared
Crimson lamplight filled the room
And covered the darkness of the street
A music box tinkled in the corner
And I was asleep on the carpet
Can I fade away into the carpet
Fade into the carpet forever
Can I please just stay there
Back in time forever and ever
Lemon juice swirled around in the water
Like quiet food coloring on a Saturday afternoon
Can the quiet of the ice cubes
Be the quiet of the earth
The tree is there where it has always been
It is quiet and the wind blows through the leaves
The fountain flows on
The stream in the woods does too