The egg didn't keep its promise
As it rolled off the counter and smashed on the floor
I didn't keep my grip on the world
As I fell from the sky and smashed through the door

In that moment I wanted something more than anything in the world
That moment was a series of reverberating moments
That rippled out throughout my life over and over
For a minute for an hour for a day for a year
Endlessly
I couldn't escape

The lullaby pattered out by the falling rain couldn't quite quiet my mind
Nothing could hush my mind
Couldn't quiet the longing, the desperation
Couldn't make everything all right

The chill wind lingered on the doorstep for just a moment
Old worn stone and an icy wind with a trace of moisture
The same way time lingered for a moment over all the glasses in the city
Before they shattered in the morning

Shards of crystal rained down on St. Peter's Square
And they thought it might be heaven breaking
The angels in the midst of an earthquake
A skyquake
An earthquake in the sky

Shards of sunlight rained down on my life
And I thought it might be heaven dreaming
Heaven dreaming that everything was all right
Telling me that everything was all right
As the golden sun shone in the beautiful white snow
And the melting crystal delightfully cooled my mouth
It was trying to tell me that I could be happy
And things were okay
Even though I knew they weren't

Unconsciously the wind lilted in her hair
And I stood there lost in the moment
Unconscious, semi-conscious

I floated in and out of time
For thousands of years
Thousands of days
in one moment
And I was waiting waiting waiting
And it never came

Can I lay my head down on the grass
And fall asleep forever
Near the old wooden pews
In the outdoor chapel
Sleep and sleep and sleep and sleep
Waiting for you to come back

It was a million silent suns
That counted all the way back to one
And started the silver all over again
The silver that wound its way through the dew
Over and through me and you
It started with the snow in the stars
And the gentle flames that flickered in the dark
The blue robin's egg sat still in the bird's nest
The sun lazily strolled across the sky to the west
The doors of heaven were open to thousands of trees
And the angels had no reason to fear the bees
Waves washed upon the shore with a peaceful rush
And the breeze whispered from the sky with a hush
On through the window and through the door
The windows were open and the dust on the floor
Settled in the afternoon sun
For the voice of the voiceless so many races were run
Ice dripped from the statues in the ice hotel
And drifting through the windows came a wonderful smell
The smell of pizza cooking in the fire
The moon it rises when the sun goes to retire
In the halls and the bedrooms of the mountain sky
Over and over the cloud wanted to cry
And in the sleepy churchyard
The butterfly's wings
Blew a tiny breeze over the golden ring
The air was quiet
The river was a dream
And the life in the air it wanted to sing

You're always on my mind
When the spiderwebs stretch out over the black expanse of the night sky
Glistening with dew
Charlotte built that web
Because he was her friend
Friends are always together
Their souls are melted together like puddles of ice water
But it's so so hard
When it's only a memory
I am living in the past
I always have
But now I really really am
It's so hard
When you're living in the ghost of a memory
And there's silence in the present
And it's nowhere to be found
"At this they wept aloud again. Then Orpah kissed her mother-in-law goodbye, but Ruth clung to her."
I clung to her
I have clung to everyone I have ever considered important
Even if I do so silently
Even if they would never know it
No matter how much it seems sometimes like I don't care
I really don't know where to go next
I want to go to the past
But it's impossible
I have no idea how to travel back in time
And I don't think I will ever be able to
If someone asked me where I want to go
I would say the past
I wouldn't say India
Or Ireland
Or Florence
I want to go to all of those places
But at the same time it doesn't matter
But if you told me there was a way to go to the past I would take the first train
Nothing much really motivates me anymore
But just the thought of that motivates me so much
And gives me the feeling that life would then have a meaning
Once again
Because I could go back and try to fix everything
And if not
I could still be with you

Seventeen thousand ice castles floated on the sea
And you were so far
far far away from me
Behind the door you can't open
The door you can't even see
The gates of time
That float in the air
Like wisps of wind
I see you through the wind
Through the air
But you're not the you of the past
The you who wants to see me

I remember a time when I went to the woods
To read a book about dragons
Hiding in the sacred shelter of evergreen trees
I think it might have been raining

I was seventeen thousand steps too short
Of reaching the moon
Seventeen thousand seas too short
Of being with you

I want to be with you forever
I don't want it to be never
Who knew I could be so halted
By something I presumed to not even care about

Blue christmas lights reflected on the stained glass
And a fountain bubbled as the candles flickered
You're always on my mind
The waves fell against the shore
The birds fell asleep to the sound
The gumball machine sat in the corner
The sunlight reflected on the glass
In the garden the rabbit slept on a pillow of grass
The breeze whispered through the trees
The lilies and tulips didn't know what to say
And I didn't either