You're always on my mind
When the spiderwebs stretch out over the black expanse of the night sky
Glistening with dew
Charlotte built that web
Because he was her friend
Friends are always together
Their souls are melted together like puddles of ice water
But it's so so hard
When it's only a memory
I am living in the past
I always have
But now I really really am
It's so hard
When you're living in the ghost of a memory
And there's silence in the present
And it's nowhere to be found
"At this they wept aloud again. Then Orpah kissed her mother-in-law goodbye, but Ruth clung to her."
I clung to her
I have clung to everyone I have ever considered important
Even if I do so silently
Even if they would never know it
No matter how much it seems sometimes like I don't care
I really don't know where to go next
I want to go to the past
But it's impossible
I have no idea how to travel back in time
And I don't think I will ever be able to
If someone asked me where I want to go
I would say the past
I wouldn't say India
Or Ireland
Or Florence
I want to go to all of those places
But at the same time it doesn't matter
But if you told me there was a way to go to the past I would take the first train
Nothing much really motivates me anymore
But just the thought of that motivates me so much
And gives me the feeling that life would then have a meaning
Once again
Because I could go back and try to fix everything
And if not
I could still be with you

Seventeen thousand ice castles floated on the sea
And you were so far
far far away from me
Behind the door you can't open
The door you can't even see
The gates of time
That float in the air
Like wisps of wind
I see you through the wind
Through the air
But you're not the you of the past
The you who wants to see me

I remember a time when I went to the woods
To read a book about dragons
Hiding in the sacred shelter of evergreen trees
I think it might have been raining

I was seventeen thousand steps too short
Of reaching the moon
Seventeen thousand seas too short
Of being with you

I want to be with you forever
I don't want it to be never
Who knew I could be so halted
By something I presumed to not even care about

Blue christmas lights reflected on the stained glass
And a fountain bubbled as the candles flickered
You're always on my mind
The waves fell against the shore
The birds fell asleep to the sound
The gumball machine sat in the corner
The sunlight reflected on the glass
In the garden the rabbit slept on a pillow of grass
The breeze whispered through the trees
The lilies and tulips didn't know what to say
And I didn't either